Lockdown and Pulling
Writing on here because I’m desperate and out of options. Ever since lockdown my pulling has become 10 times worse, and recently I was told o have to work from home for the foreseeable which is damaging my mental health even further I just sit at home and pull all day.
I cry everyday now and I’m crying writing this because that job and being out the house was the only thing that prevented me from pulling so much. I feel ashamed and most of all ugly, it’s affecting my relationship because I don’t want him to look at me never mind anything else.
I’m a mess. Last night I pulled nearly all my eyelashes out on one eye, and some on the other, it has never been this severe before and even now because my eyes are so sore and bruised from the pulling, the pain is making me want to do it even more. The urge has never been this strong.
I was wondering if anyone else can relate to this and most of all try and give me some advice or help. I’m thinking about getting counselling maybe but I don’t know where to start with trying to arrange that, last time I told a doctor they just gave me a leaflet and I was left feeling even more embarrassed and helpless.