Feel so sad about tricho
Hi to everyone, first of all sorry for my English if its not very well its because I'm not from the USA.
I'm 25 years old and pulling hair for 12 years.
About only 2 years agi I found out that I have trichotullomania, it is not the no one noticed.
I noticed and my mom did.
But here we don't have the awareness for that issue.
Once I took a shower, about 14 years old and after a long time I didn't I saw many man blades on my scalp I was soooo panic - more then the trying to keep it a secret so I called my mom - shout to her, she came running to the bathroom asking me what was going on?
Then I cried and tell hair all my hair is with withe spots!!!
She told my immediately thats because you pulling hair! And i saw you! And I told you not to do so!!
Everything you wanna pull just think about me.
And I did think about my mother because she is the most important person for me.
And I'm still thinking about her but it is not helping me. All those years I continue pulling over and over again (maybeeee for couple of months here and there..)
Guys, please, plzzz tell me my hair will grow up.
I'm pulling 13 14 years and just want my hair back.
I had amaziiinggg fuuull beautiful hair (that one of the reson I started pulling was because some kids in high school told me my hair is ugly- and he didn't! The lovers ones called me Horse's tail, my hair was brown blond and very long and strong).
Now, I can see at my back 1 cm- 2 cm white spots , but ots all over my back so it looks sometimes a big withe spot under everting.
Upon my ear, I have tied up my hair.
And then pulling.
So, if I understand what happened its that I cut the hair in the middle, I really don't think I arrived to the roots because my hair there is too long ( half of my letgh (i. Ment the cm of my hair - half?) .
So because its long, maybe this from the middle continue growing as well?
Please help me, I started to see big spots after 13 ayers will it grow? I have no oneeee to tell and people here immediately think you're "crazy" so that is not an opportunity.
I can't swim, in the last time I don't want my bf to touch my hair and I think I strt feel I have less hair because he sae me playing with my hair sometimes without understanding and told me last time - what append to my beautiful hair?
I'm so so afraid that anyone will revel- if they do i really think my life are over dude.
What should I do?
I cry every night before I go to sleep and wake up with anxiety about me hair, and steressd.
Please tell me things will be ok
Thank you, so so much.