New here - pls help me :(
My name is Mina. I’ve been suffering since 2011. Im now 22 years old and have barely any hAir left on my head. I got married in 2019 to my partner of 8 years. Last year we moved in together and he persuaded me to let him help me. He has been so supportive. I wore a wig for years and have not since I think April. I went without pulling for I think around 3 weeks. I was doing so good but became week and said to myself ‘oh I’m just gona pull one hair it won’t do anything’ - it went down hill after that. I tried to hide it from my hubby because I get ashamed but he noticed the bald patch that emerged. He wasn’t happy. We then decided to fully shave my hair to a 0. It helped because it felt like a fresh start but when the hair started coming back so did the pulling. My husband now thinks I have stopped and is focusing on me regrowing my hair. I’m too ashamed to tel him that I’m still pulling because he will just get really upset and think I’m a failure. He won’t understand that I can’t just stop in a heart beat.
The pulling is worse at night during restless nights. Like tonight... it’s 2:34am whilst I’m writing this.
Oh I also had a baby last year she’s now 8months old and it scares me because sometimes I pull in front of her and I’m scared in case she pick this habit from watching me:(
I don’t know what to do I felt like I was so close to ending this pulling but I also feel so far from the end